Well, hi there!

I know right now im talking to myself- but thats ok! Hopefully someday soon someone is going to stumble upon this little blog of mine and actually be interested in my story, well- thats the plan anyway.

So, I guess ill start with my story. Its not very long and for the most of it, i have been a lucky, privelleged, middle class girl in a rural town. Im one of those 'lucky' ones, parents are still married (shock!), I never went without, I was school Captain, head of the student council, DUX, and all those other over achieving things you think will help you out in real life, that really dont.

Anyway, I had it good. I had a steady boyfriend right through highschool and although we seemed from different sides of the tracks and every one fobbed us off as a phase, we are still going strong six years later. Introducing my boyfriend Kane. Ta-da! Well, around two years after I met Kane, I was pretty well settled, I had gotten into a great University, accepted into the college I had hoped for, and had recieved the scholarship id worked so hard to gain. Then I went for a pap test.

Here, my life turned a little upside down, and it was this day that changed the course of my life, so it seems. The day after id had this routine test, I recieved a call from my doctor. The news wasnt exactly bad, but never the less, it wasnt good. My tests had shown 'abnormal cells' across a large part of my cervical walls (gross, I know). Another test should reveal more comprehensive results, so she said.

Ok- regroup. It mightn't be that bad.

It was. Cancerous.

Argh! What!?

I stared at my gynocologist in disbelief. I was 18 years old. I was about to start Uni. I had my bags packed and everything- this does not fit into my plans at all!

Test after test, a couple of operations, a few different courses of treatment, a lot of antibiotics and stitches, oh man- were there stitches. However, here I sit, two years later and in what seems to be complete remission. Tests keep coming back mercifully clear of abnormalities and I am blessed.

However, there is just one spanner thrown into my works.

Children.

A subject i'd never really given any thought to before I thought about not being able to have them. I always assumed i would have children. I came from a big, tight knit family and it was just assumed that i would finish my education, get married and bring a few little people into the world.

My life had other plans. My body was weakened from treatment- it needed to happen soon said my doctor.

Alas- here i am. Contemplating this desicion.

Eeeek! Thats enough for one night- i hope your all as legitimatley confused as i am.

Love, Keya. x